why am i up?

yesterday was a really long day for me. long but in the end it ended up alright. i cant seem to find sleep anymore. the rain woke me up. i've tried but nothing seems to work. what's keeping me up? and why do i feel so anxious? i dont really understand it but im not gonna fight it. i should be using this time to do work but since when do i ever do what im supposed to. its still raining... i have class in a few hours. maybe ill take an umbrella, and meet her outside in the rain