Its kinda funny

How hanging out with certain people make you think of certain things. At times it may be random but at others the connection is clear. earlier tonight i just realized something, and it was probably by the most unexpected yet most expected person to come from. i know it makes no sense but hear me out. This girl has put me through every possible emotion imaginable. through her ive learned what true happiness is but at the price of finally meeting pain, anger, hatred, jealousy, regret, and sorrow. I've known her for so long and i care so much for her because no matter what we've gone through somehow some way we end up closer than before. but tonight she made me realize something. something i thought had hit me a long time ago...

We're getting old
Graduation is coming fast
What are we gonna do

until tonight i never really thought of it and honestly it still hasn't hit me completely. things are changing yet we feel nothing. as the world changes we're still here unchanged, numb and lifeless to the world around us.

Its been a while

Honestly i think the last time i updated this was the 7th? im not entirely sure, but anyway the reason why i havent done anything is because i've been catching up with school and robotics and such and such. things have been hectic but with winter break coming along itll give me a chance to do nothing for a while, maybe too much of nothing. tonight was a great start to what i thought was gonna be a boring break. Tara picked me up from robotics with Evan, Josh, and Nick. we all went to eat at archies mainly to see Matt. the food was great much better than i expected. since my parents are such hardasses making me come home before 8 we just hung out in my garage and played music, my dad even got involved and it was really fun until tara locked her keys in the car. her parents had to come down and bring the spare but they werent happy about it. all in all it was a perfect night and the whole time i noticed that at the restaurant and in my garage there was always an empty seat, i really wished you were there to experience it all ^^

Winter Sonata[no not the drama]

Time is moving faster and faster
It honestly feels like just yesterday
the days were long,
but now they've become shorter
seasons have changed
but our feelings remain the same
i love your eyes
i love your smile
and every night i wish you could just stay a while
late nights, early mornings...
the best times of my life
all those nights waiting to say goodnight
all those early weekends hoping to say goodmorning
none of it feels like a chore
something i've never felt before
so true i dont need a reason
You are what im thankful for
Throughout this holiday season

For the team

Maui High Cross Country Team 2008
what could i possibly say about these guys
i love them all to death
We were more than just a team we were a family. A family who stuck by each other in good times and in bad times. A family who would never alienate another. A family who shared their victories and stuck together in their defeats. It has been one hell of a ride, and everyone who was a part of it made it that much better. Our year of dominance will certainly be a hard feat to overcome. We will strive not only to become better than we were this year, but to become harder, faster, and stronger than we have ever been. And we will never forget the message that rung in our hearts since day one......

You can measure Distance, but you can't measure Heart.

A Tale of Two Sisters

All I have to say is "wow". This movie exceeded all my expectations. Without giving too much away, all im gonna say is that you may not get the story the first time around but the more you watch it the more you understand. While i was expecting to be scared most of the movie, i was drawn in by the story. It has its scary moments but the horror goes on the backburner in this compelling tale.

The story follows two sisters as they return home from an unknown absence. When they return home they are reunited with their downright bitchy stepmother. As the children spend more time in the house weird things keep happening, and a horrible memory is slowly revealed as the movie progresses.

Definetly worth watching if you love a good movie with a deeper meaning than meets the eye. If you are looking for a down right gore-fest look elsewhere.

To love another...

Faced with an ultimatum
i made a decision
one i stand by fully
i still care about you just not in that way
and i wish we could be friends but the way you are acting now...
just makes you not worth the effort
dont be angry at me for telling you the truth
and dont be angry because of what i feel
and never tell me what to do because no one gave you the right
i would choose her over any girl even if she were thousands of miles away
even if i could never see her
even when in the back of my mind i know we may never be together
i would choose her over anyone
call me an idiot
call me a liar
call me whatever you want but it doesnt matter
she is the only thing in my world right now that actually makes sense to me
no words can tell you how i feel whenever i talk to her
for all i've sinned i must've done something right
i thought i would be ok with someone else
but the cold hard truth is im not
im not ok with any other girl because deep down inside all ill be thinking of is her
my little panda baby
my purple gummy bear
the only girl who feels right

Wow history has just been made

I applaud you Senator Barrack Obama. For you have given hope to the oppressed throughout our Nation. You have proved that in this day and age that the American dream is possible. You are the living proof. I never thought i would see the day a man of color would step into the oval office to serve as our president. I never thought a Man coming from such humble beginnings would have such a bright and illustrious future. Congratulations to America's First Ever African American President Barack Obama.


Goodluck and Godspeed

The Host

So today i watched The Host. its a korean horror movie about a real dysfuntional family who's youngest daughter is taken away by a mutated monster from the han river. what really intrigued me about the movie was how well they mixed Drama and Comedy. its a little like cloverfield whitout the shaky camera, which was a real plus for me. i've always had a niche for foreign movies. i dont know what it is but those movies are able to draw me into the story better than american movies. i really enjoyed watching the film. it started to get a little boring towards the middle, but it was all worth it in the end. 4/5

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween everyone. i hope you all enjoyed your sugar rushes. this halloween was pretty cool, dressed up as a jabbawockee and walked around the neighborhood. i also got mistaken for a phantom of the opera, and micheal myers. while walking with my brother and mother[wow such old english] i met up with a few friends from the cross country team. all in all it was a fun night...
and the whole time, i had you on my mind shizu ^^

Reunion [sorta]

The last couple days have been pretty interesting. Because of EAST class i was able to go up to another school to learn how to do CAD drawings [computer architecture]. I was originally supposed to go to that high school but since i moved plans changed. When i got up there i immediately saw people i went to elementary school with, some recognized me and others didnt. but regardless it was nice seeing them all again. knowing that they are all doing fine, and maybe someday we could meet again in a more formal setting